Sunday, May 18, 2008

Would you rather see your family die or would you rather die yourself?

This question was asked to the class which always plays over in my head...
"Would you rather see your family die or would you rather die yourself?"

This is something that really hits hard for me. Last summer, over summer break I was in Martha's Vineyard for our annual family vacation ….while me and my father were swimming in the cold ocean at South Beach my father died of an unexpected massive heart attack. Ever since this disaster my family has turned completely upside down... making me feel that I lost my whole family that day…nothing will ever go back the way it used to be and thats something that I have to deal with everyday.

Sometimes i look back and wish that why was my dad taken and not me? I feel I have become alot stronger after this experience but then on the other hand would have it been easier if I was gone?

1 comment:

gloria monaghan said...

Brittney-
In your second post you remind us that we have the unique ability to cry. Who would ever think that it is a gift to grieve, and to be compassionate. Do you ever think that there is a reason you survived? No one is ever ready for a parent's death, and I am truly sorry for your loss.